2nd semester damn boring!

I can't believe i failed my public speaking! i got a F for that subject~ OMG!! my result sucks.. it's really pissed me off and i feel so disappointed! i'm quite down when i took my result! i got 1A, 1B, 1C and 1F!! haiz~ furthermore, i have no courage to tell my parents about my result too! super scare parents will scold me! need to pay rm1200 to retake that subject again.. haiz.. waste money and time! anyway, i will try my best next time!! My 2nd semester started few days ago, this sem is quite boring because everyday study for 3 hours ONLY! and the subject is quite boring too! I really need to serious on studies from now onwards! i can't endure of my result anymore i must study hard and try my best to archive good results!! Besides education, still got one thing keep distracting me inside my brain!! That is HY!!! haiz~ sometimes i still will think of our memories again and again! i also don know why im still thinking about her! is it nothing can cure me? im scare! hope all those things about us can forget but i failed to do it AGAIN!! haiz~ what a stubborn person I am! sometimes, i keep looking at my phone and wish she will text me one day but everytime i feel frustrated! she wont msg me anymore perhaps? since last year i promised my friends i will put her down and now im still loving her! omg! what the hell i'm thinking of these passed! HAIZ!!