i think i wanna stop stalking "her"

I'm stalking her when i log in my fb account! i think every time i log in, i will went to her page to stalk her! im was viewing all her comment, status and photos! almost everything i knew what she's doing on fb~ i feel like i very stupid! keep asking myself why im still wanna view her profile? any benefits? haiz~ just became my habit since last year! forget her is the hardest thing that i never done! harder than everything else! sometimes i feel like moody when she was chatting with her friends which is all BOYS very closely! jealous is absolutely, but she rather to jokes with others, definitely NOT me =( quite sad sometimes! actually cannot blame her because is not her fault! im still loving her, it's TRUTH! but is a MUST for me to let it go! trying my best recently to stop thinking of her~ i think the time pass will shows everything!!!!!!!

one more day after is my birthday

Normally my friends celebrate birthday with me on 11th July in the past two years, that's mean when i'm form4 and form5. this is because one of my friend who called jian vei also birthday on 11th, that is 2 day before my birthday. im still remembered about last year, we went to times square SHOPPING! haha.. Actually we are not only went there for celebrate and we get there to buy some formal shirts for our prom night. that day hy is there too. im quite happy because we are still bla bla bla la! hahaha.. last year of my birthday, im surprise with hy's wishes.. before  few hour of my birthday, she said she want to sleep because of too tired and i feel quite disappointed which she cant wish me by 12 am sharp. Surprisingly, she set her alarm by 12am to wake her up and she called me inside the toilet because her sister was sleeping in the room. when i saw my phone ringing and i get shock and surprise.. she sang  me a birthday song and gave me a memorable wishes! that moment i was like OMG! hahaha.. all these are memories =) but i'm wondering this year what would happened on my birthday?? isn't her still remember my birthday? this year i don expect more, i just want a wish from her by 12 am~ hope she's still remember! xDDDD