saturday!!

Today keep online at home nothing to do.. just very boring.. i want to find her but i cant.. i scare i will disappointed again... everytime i msg her i will be prepare to accept the sad feeling.. because i msg her she don wan to reply me lo it will causes me unhappy.. haiz.. so, i decide to control myself to stop finding her.. hope she will find me one day.. of cause i still missing her so much.. i hope she can don always say im disturbing her T.T is very sad when i heard she said im keep 'FAN' her.. haiz.. actually i admit i had fan her but i just wanted to treat her good.. i have many question wan to ask her but she will said me fan too.. is useless if i ask her, i also wont get any good things if i ask her.. i just concern about her.. haiz.. she always keep saying none of ur business.. so hurt.. i just want to know but she said like that to me =( hope she work with a nice mood.. i scare she have a lot of stress when she's working.. GOD must bless her o..