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My mood keep down and i don know whats the reason is.. haiz.. i trying to be happy but i can't!! yesterday night i having a conversation with her.. starting we both communicate happily de and then don know why suddenly ME don know talking about what make her a bit unhappy.. maybe is im thinking about last time lo,, haiz.. don know la... some memories cannot be remember BUT i keep mention it so make her feel so angry and disappointed.. i was so regret again.. today morning we chat a while but she said she have nothing to talk with me.. i was so shock when she said like that.. maybe she still thinking yesterday night de thing.. i hope she can think it positively lo.. i already changed a lot but she din realize it.. how come she didn't feel that i already changed???? its okay i will prove it more obviously to her... and this few day she sick jor... quite worry about her and i wish i can take care her but i cant.. sometimes i will act like her boyfriend i also don know why i will like that.. i was so HATE myself why i have this kind of attitude.. i just wanna happy life with her and din have others distraction... i wish her sick will be recover faster and i will pray for her^^ and i hope she will known me that i have changed a lot because of her.. said NO to last time memories!! haha