feel SAD

Yesterday she really din find me at all.. the whole day i wait her to find me and she didn't.. haiz.. so today the same.. i feel so disappointed on her.. why she want treat me like this??? why?? i really wanna know?? haiz.. she even don wan to give the answer that i wanna know.. just feel disappointed and super sad.. everyday i looks like very strong but my heart was weak.. nowadays i keep telling myself must be strong but last night i cried.. quite a long time i didn't cry for her jor.. haiz.. why she wan to hurt me again? is it me too annoying??? actually i didn't make her angry lo.. don know why she like hate me and bu shuang me? why? i wanna know what she thinking.. i also wanna know whats inside her mind??? GOD, pls help me.. i really need your help.. our relationship must be safe.. PLS i beg you GOD...